OPERATION CHRISTMAS CHILD 2012

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I Am Exhausted

I am stressed to the Max!  I can feel my blood pressure rising, the back of my neck gets sore and my ears start ringing.  There are so many different things going on  right now that I don't have any control of, and I hate that!I feel like the guy at the circus that is trying to keep all the plates spinning on those slender sticks. He is running around like a chicken with his head cut off, but always smiling and putting on a good front.

I am glad I have a job, but they (the powers that be) have exceedingly high expectations of their technologists.  In order to perform a quality diagnostic ultrasound study, the tech needs a certain amount of time.  Add on and walk -ins will get the numbers up, but at what cost?  A missed pathology, and an burned out tech.

The Short Sale situation.  Totally over it. Have not written anymore letters, nor made any more calls.  I am drained.

My oldest son, J.  Incarcerated.  His own fault, he accepts it.  But, he is depressed and lost.  It about does me in. I keep him in my prayers. God will pull him through.

My dad.  He will be 89 Next Tuesday. He is not in the best of health.  Today, he found out his friend,(his last  living friend)  who was battling leukemia  died.  He cried uncontrollably. I have never seen him do that.

Menopause.  Sucks.  Sleep is fleeting.  Emotions are on high alert.  Did you also know that Menopause affects your memory?   Note to self: Refill the Estrogen Rx.  Immediately. 
Yep.  I am Exhausted.

Thank you for listening.

7 comments:

Jane said...

Ok, so menopause it is...sigh...just finished flapping the bedding to cool myself off. I think your hormones are out of whack and your emotions are on a roller coaster right now. (Man, nothing worse than seeing your dad cry like that.) I'm tearing up just thinking about it. Sorry kiddo, in my mind I'm holding your hand right now.

Grammy Suzzy said...

I know this doesn't help you much, but maybe, if misery does love company, you have made me feel so not alone! the blood pressure, the son and wrong choices (funny they say it only hurts them, but they are not a mom, are they!), and the forgetting. The picture you selected says it all!!! I am always spinning plates!!! Thank you for sharing your pain, and easing mine. We will pray for each other!

Maureen said...

I would love to give you a cuddle right now and tell you things will improve, somtimes we are a slave to our hormones, but thats not the whole story for you.
How sad to see your Dad break down, as Daughters we always see Dad as the strong one and it,s a cruel twist of fate to see them rely on us.
Walk away from the Short Sale, it is obvously not mean to be.
(((((((((((((((hugs ))))))))))))

Niki said...

You have every reason to be stressed, you are dealing with not just a lot of stuff , but a lot of major life changing things and all at once.
I hope you can take some "you" time soon, you need it.

Jan said...

As women, we carry so many burdens. Some days are so hard. When feeling so stressed and overwhelmed, it's hard to "let go and let God". You have a lot on your plate. Like Niki wrote, I hope you can take some time for yourself.

Louise said...

you have so much happening, no wonder your exhausted! hope you get a bit of a rest over the weekend((hugs))

oh and menopause... don't get me started! if it wasn't for the powersurge site I'd be a basket case

Grammy Suzzy said...

I know this doesn't help you much, but maybe, if misery does love company, you have made me feel so not alone! the blood pressure, the son and wrong choices (funny they say it only hurts them, but they are not a mom, are they!), and the forgetting. The picture you selected says it all!!! I am always spinning plates!!! Thank you for sharing your pain, and easing mine. We will pray for each other!

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