A Little Stressed
At times I can hardly catch my breath. The stress of everything lately is taking it toll. I see myself walking around with a smile on my face like everything is okay, but deep down inside I am waiting for the other shoe to fall. The other shoe being that mom will end of in the hospital again, and when she gets out I will have to care for her full time.... or not. She definitely could do great for the long term and nothing will go wrong for a while. That would be wonderful!
Work is stressing me out, lately I hate driving to all the places they send me. Before, I was okay with it. Is it that we are getting busier or I really don't care? It could be all the driving. I drive an hour to work and then when I get there I drive all day and then after work I drive another hour home. Crazy, ain't it?
My other part time job (at the college) is stressful because I have to leave my other job early one day a week to be at the scanning lab on time so I can then work til 9 PM at night. What was I thinking? I don't know. Looking back, when I took this position, I had NO job so that plays a part in the decision process.
Today, we put cable in my mom's room that she is staying in while here. After the cable guys left, it stopped working and I was so frustrated that I wanted to scream. The customer service rep on the phone was too condescending and I practically hung up on her.
And.... how long will my mom be staying here with us? I am leaving that up to her. If and when she goes back to her house she will have to get a Life Alert necklace. But what if she decides to stay here? That will be stressing me out too.
I am so over all this drama and stress. I want to run away. You understand, don't you?